Gosh, I wrote about half an entry last time I was on and stupid IE (internet explorer) had to crash on me... I was talking about dreams b/c my cousin was talking about it, but I don't feel like telling about my dreams all over again so I'll just talk about my random thoughts on dreams. I think it's pretty much safe to say that all people have had the type of dream where you are being chased/running away or toward something. Yes, it's a general topic, and these dreams can mean lots of things, but usually I think are negative. I remember a few dreams of mine, where I was being chased/hunted by other... err lets use creatures around, typically for me, a house. Call me crazy, but it's a reoccuring theme for me... I'm not really sure what to make of it... I would guess that it's a reflection of my life and how I stay home almost all the time, not liking it usually. A little farfetched, but it's a dream =/ These are the type of dreams that I remember better. The other dreams I have are usually uneventful, boring, and have no point (ie: walking around a randomly generated house with a friend).
It's strange; All these house dreams I have, they are houses I swear I've never been in, or seen before, about 90% of the time. And I almost never leave the house, or at least the ground it's on @_@ Kinda freaky huh... Sure, maybe I'm just retarded in my sub-conscious, but I would be interested in finding out what they mean. Another strange tidbit, I almost never remember any speech from my dreams. For the most part, I think that I usually experience my dreams alone. For example, I'll notice other people, but I won't really talk to them... Is that supposed to reflect my quiet personality? That would be very weird and freaky... B/c I'm not always quiet. Hrmm, I hope I will have a dream tonight I will remember and reflect more... My dreams feel very empty and vague. It would also help if I remembered them better >_< which would mean it'd have to be a re-occuring dream... Anyway enough of my rambling.
So what have I been up to... I bought my college books and it's a whopping $360!!! >_< Damn expensive, and to think I'll probably get less than 50% of that back when I sell them again. I wish I had some close to my age relatives at UW u_u;; I also got my Husky Card and that's cool. Got teh U-Pass so now I can ride for free =D But I probably won't during the summer b/c I can drive, har har har. I will eventually bus to school though, but that's nothing I'm not used to. *sigh* Summer is winding down very quickly... I need to enjoy the rest of this before the horrid college homework starts >_< Been planning to go karting with Twong for a while and that is a must do!!! Need to gather some peeps for that to make it more fun. Not a lot of good movies out... =/ I rewatched soem old Chinese movies for kicks, like the old Wong Fei Hung or Once Upon a Time in China series. Quality stuff =D. Work is alrite. Making some bank, but not as much as I'd like to. I just hope that I'll get promoted =D. I attempted to clean my room on Monday, but I ended up only getting around to cleaning out one drawer, hahaha. Man, a lot of memories as I took out everything... A lot of childhood bits. Old schoolwork that I didn't realize I had placed there. Old doodlings that I used to think were very good drawings. Stationary from all the random little gifts and holidays. Comic cards and the sort... It's saddening to have to put all these things away and wake up to a different room. After I eventually clean out my room that is. Even though I am not dorming, I still feel I need to clean out as much of my old stuff as much as possible to make room for a new life. It almost pains me to think that I cannot return to the carefree, reckless abandon lifestyle I had when I was a kid. Now if I did that, they'd call me immature or a runt. I have to take care of stuff and be responsible. Sorry, as someone who's called a banana, I'm still pessimistic like many asians. It's a bad trait I've inherited... I'll just have to remember to watch my step, keep hope that I can make it, and trust myself, and hopefully learn to trust others better. I feel that in the past that I've often misplaced trust or not placed enough. I realize this will make it very tough for me to have relationships in the future, and it's something I hope to work on in college. I pray that this next part of my life will be better. The big man's watching over me much more closely now. Enuf for now, I'll be back.
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