*sigh*::The following is my ranting about my life now and outlook for my college life:: (and then a little update about other stuff)
So UW starts in less than a week... Friends are about to move in. Fall O is happening over the next few days (argg my uckin' F key isn't working and it's driving me insane) I still have yet to prepare myself for what is going to happen there... ie: buy any needed school supplies, clean out my binder/backpack, get into any sort of "school mode". But I can't really get myself into it b/c I'm going to be living at home, and I realize that nothing is really going to change much for me. It's actually a painful realization due to many factors. So those of you who knew about and hung out with me on my "free week", probably know now that I'm grounded again for not obeying the stupid rule of not going out at night. It's pretty crappy knowing that I have to put up with this crap still when I'm 18 going into college. I feel like I'm still having to fight with my parents when I choose to do something. I don't even understand how it came this way... I'm not mischievous or immature. I've always been honest and constant. Never straying too far or doing wild things. When I do something unexpected, my parents freak and tighten their grip on me. Even when I do tell them ahead of time... I know a lot of you have heard this from me many many times, and know about my overprotective parents... But I don't know why they give me so much trouble... I feel like I'm the only one among eveorne else I know that has this problem. Did I really do something bad as a kid? Communication has never been really good in my family, I think because I was usually isolated at home for the most part except for school and family outings. During family outings, my dad would do pretty much all the talking for all of us... My sister and I would mainly shout for joy when we did something fun or complain when we didn't. My mom wasn't a very strong role, except for signing me up for random camps. I guess I somehow took in her antisocial-ness early on. Now I try very hard to get out more, even just to hang out. Well... One of these days I'm going to break out...
Ok, even that was enough ranting about that subject for me... I just pray that I'll be able to make a decent college life with what I have... Moving on. Work Sucks. Need to eat better/more so I can gain some weight and then work out... Lately I've been eating a bit of junk food... Random sweet drinks, corndogs, donuts and the such in hope of gaining some weight. But I don't think I've gained much if any. I do so much running around and lifting at work that I think I work it off. I've probably strengthened my legs from all the standing/running but that's it. I need to make use of the IMA soon.
Random change of subject: (great I forgot or the moment... >_<) I'm so not looking forward to homework again... especially in the massive amounts I know that it will come in... It's saddening that everyone's moving away. I know I'm talking as if I'm sad at the last moment, but it's really happening since everyone moves into dorms tomorrow @_@ (I make a lot of random subject changes) Ok, I"m tired of writing jumble of random thoughts now.
OK, really short post of what happened in the past week. So I went to play football on sunday, good fun, altho peeps were pretty shady. The guy that I played against in general was pretty dirty... Swinging elbows, ripping shirts intentionally... u_u;;; On monday, went to visit Chavis at his work and then eventually had a poker night at Matoki's crib. I was dealer (cuz i'm weak like that, don't want to gamble my money) and did a pretty good job =D. That's right. Tuesday, I went to visit UW with Davishi, Matoki and Chavis. Saw a bunch of hot sororeighty girls as we drove by like 3 times, lol. Had lunch and almost saw a street fight, but it ended up being nothing and the two people made up after we sat waiting for something to happen... u_u;;; Tuesday night... saw Love Undercover 2 with Miriam Yeung and Daniel Wu. *sigh* what's happening to HK cinema~! >_< Let's say this was no where near the quality of the first movie... Miriam overracted like crazy, trying to be cute, but overall making herself annoying as hell. There's a hot chick in there, but she get sshot in the ass and she doesn't get much screen time, plus her speaking sux so yea. *sigh* failure here. Only see this movie if you're a huge fan of either Miriam or Daniel, cuz you'll for sure have lots of them in it. Thursday, went to Why K's to watch Old School. Quality movie!!!! XD Very funny and actually has a good story/message behind it. Will Ferrell pleases and sends constant laughs. You even get to see 2, not one, but 2 sets of nice melons!! I'd recommend this to anyone who doesn't mind crude humor. I think it'll please just about everyone. I give it a 9.5 / 10 simply due to the fact that you see Will Ferrell's fat ass 3 times too many u_u;; But side from that, it's great. Ok, Friday, had lunch at Cali Pizza Kitchen. Man I haven't eaten such good stuff in a long time... Walked around Belle Square for a while, and saw a lot of changes. I haven't been there for quite a while. And yes, I'm here now, saturday night, feeling crappy b/c I gave up an 8 hr shift to go to Wild Waves tomorrow and now no one can go at all... u_u; How unfortunate and a waste...
So a new trend has taken over. That trend is GUNBOUND. Only the most intense, fun, and great mulitplayer game ever since... I dunno, whatever was popular and cool and everyone played when you were younger. Simple description: you control a character in a vehicle and the game setup is very much like the classic game Worms. You're on a small 2d plane and you try to shoot other people. You get mroe experience and money for taking out other peeps and winning games. With money you can deck your avatar out with cool threads and goods to boost the attributes of your character. It's cartoonish and has an awesome soundtrack to it too. Very quality game, i recommend to everyone. It's still in it's beta form though, so there are still a few glitches, such as not being able to trade yet or add friends to a buddy list. Go get it now at http://www.gunbound.net !!! You won't regret it =D
Gosh, I wrote about half an entry last time I was on and stupid IE (internet explorer) had to crash on me... I was talking about dreams b/c my cousin was talking about it, but I don't feel like telling about my dreams all over again so I'll just talk about my random thoughts on dreams. I think it's pretty much safe to say that all people have had the type of dream where you are being chased/running away or toward something. Yes, it's a general topic, and these dreams can mean lots of things, but usually I think are negative. I remember a few dreams of mine, where I was being chased/hunted by other... err lets use creatures around, typically for me, a house. Call me crazy, but it's a reoccuring theme for me... I'm not really sure what to make of it... I would guess that it's a reflection of my life and how I stay home almost all the time, not liking it usually. A little farfetched, but it's a dream =/ These are the type of dreams that I remember better. The other dreams I have are usually uneventful, boring, and have no point (ie: walking around a randomly generated house with a friend).
It's strange; All these house dreams I have, they are houses I swear I've never been in, or seen before, about 90% of the time. And I almost never leave the house, or at least the ground it's on @_@ Kinda freaky huh... Sure, maybe I'm just retarded in my sub-conscious, but I would be interested in finding out what they mean. Another strange tidbit, I almost never remember any speech from my dreams. For the most part, I think that I usually experience my dreams alone. For example, I'll notice other people, but I won't really talk to them... Is that supposed to reflect my quiet personality? That would be very weird and freaky... B/c I'm not always quiet. Hrmm, I hope I will have a dream tonight I will remember and reflect more... My dreams feel very empty and vague. It would also help if I remembered them better >_< which would mean it'd have to be a re-occuring dream... Anyway enough of my rambling.
So what have I been up to... I bought my college books and it's a whopping $360!!! >_< Damn expensive, and to think I'll probably get less than 50% of that back when I sell them again. I wish I had some close to my age relatives at UW u_u;; I also got my Husky Card and that's cool. Got teh U-Pass so now I can ride for free =D But I probably won't during the summer b/c I can drive, har har har. I will eventually bus to school though, but that's nothing I'm not used to. *sigh* Summer is winding down very quickly... I need to enjoy the rest of this before the horrid college homework starts >_< Been planning to go karting with Twong for a while and that is a must do!!! Need to gather some peeps for that to make it more fun. Not a lot of good movies out... =/ I rewatched soem old Chinese movies for kicks, like the old Wong Fei Hung or Once Upon a Time in China series. Quality stuff =D. Work is alrite. Making some bank, but not as much as I'd like to. I just hope that I'll get promoted =D. I attempted to clean my room on Monday, but I ended up only getting around to cleaning out one drawer, hahaha. Man, a lot of memories as I took out everything... A lot of childhood bits. Old schoolwork that I didn't realize I had placed there. Old doodlings that I used to think were very good drawings. Stationary from all the random little gifts and holidays. Comic cards and the sort... It's saddening to have to put all these things away and wake up to a different room. After I eventually clean out my room that is. Even though I am not dorming, I still feel I need to clean out as much of my old stuff as much as possible to make room for a new life. It almost pains me to think that I cannot return to the carefree, reckless abandon lifestyle I had when I was a kid. Now if I did that, they'd call me immature or a runt. I have to take care of stuff and be responsible. Sorry, as someone who's called a banana, I'm still pessimistic like many asians. It's a bad trait I've inherited... I'll just have to remember to watch my step, keep hope that I can make it, and trust myself, and hopefully learn to trust others better. I feel that in the past that I've often misplaced trust or not placed enough. I realize this will make it very tough for me to have relationships in the future, and it's something I hope to work on in college. I pray that this next part of my life will be better. The big man's watching over me much more closely now. Enuf for now, I'll be back.
Hrm, been a week, my bad on keeping this thing more up to date. I've got a few things to talk about. Let's start with the anime movie I just recently watched called Ghost In The Shell. Now I've been told that this is a renown film that was the first to make it on America's big screen. So I thought, hey, if it's that good, maybe it's worth watching. So I downloaded it (piracy forever!) and watched it last week. It's some pretty intense stuff. Action is pretty good, and it's got a pretty good plot line to go along with it. It goes into some deep and profound questions that could be related to humans today. Err I guess I should give some sort of summary. So it takes place in the future (sorry I forget the date) in Japan and revolves around this government group known as Public Peace Section 9. They're pretty much "special cops", in a way like SWAT, except way more attitude. OK, that sounds strange, but you will see it in the movie, b/c you will see the movie... >) They go and track down a hacker who is screwing around with people's minds, killing them, and causing a disturbance in society in general. The main character is a girl cyborg who's as badass as hell and can take out a tank with a P90 with special HV (high velocity) bullets. So now that I've gotten through that, I'll just leave it at recommending this movie for anyone who enjoy's anime and those who like deep questions amist intense action scenes. Think that's a tuff combination? This movie pulls it off very well. I'd rate this movie a 9 / 10 simply b/c it lacked humor. The soundtrack to this movie is also pretty good, could've used some better rock or techno for the action scenes IMO though. Almost naked and naked chicks running around with guns ablazing. Why not watch this movie? I would tell even those who don't usually watch anime to watch this movie. People who frequent this site would also know that I don't give out high ratings for movies very often either... I'll leave it at that.
Lets see what's next... So I went to a poker night on Thursday night at one of my friend's house. First time I've gambled with my own money, and let's just say I'm not a very happy camper about gambling with money. If you were to take a look at my tokens, I didn't lose very much. However, we played a different way where all the money was thrown into a pot that was divided among the top two players (people with most tokens). Since I didn't make much, I didn't win... but this was a "good learning experience". Trevor came out top and had a pretty good night, on getting good cards-wise. He had 3 full houses in the hour we played!!! >_< *cough* rigged *cough* 2nd went to Jackie, who made an amazing turnaround in the last hand, making all he lost and enough to take 2nd. While they left with money, the rest of us left with yet another reason to kick jackie's ass. j/k But just to have a little more point to what I write, I'll just say "Don't Gamble kids... You're better off giving your money to me."
Now to the finale of this entry... I went to Wild Waves today!!! XD!!!! Althought I know that it isn't really that great of an amusement park, it really felt good after working two 8 hour shifts on the weekend U_U;;; They have a new roller coaster called the TimberHawk that's made of wood. It was alrite, but wood roller coasters are obsolete. The can go up and down, but not round and round. The Wild Thing is still the best ride there... unfortunately. I only say that b/c I've been to Cali's Magic Mountain Six Flags Theme Park!!! XD!!! Sorry, but you haven't ridden on a coaster lest you've been to a Six Flags. The water slides were alrite, I didn't get to go on the intertube one though b/c time was running low and my parents wanted to get back earlier since my sister and cousin (Fred) had school tomorrow. Ha ha ha ha....... WA HA HA HA HA!!! O, luckily we didn't have to pay the regular price b/c my parents borrowed special cards from their friends to get massive discounts there so we only had to pay $10 a person! Which is all that it's worth... erp, but I wouldn't mind going again with my friends. < D Speaking of which... I think I may be able to procure tickets again later for September... hehehe.
Now for another random review of a chinese movie I just watched. Unfortunately, it's an older action movie, entitled Fulltime Killer staring Andy Lau and this other Japanese guy. (Cherrie Ying and Kelly Lin too =D!) Andy Lau stars as Tok, a new hot shot, flamboyant assassin who's out to make his name big. He aims at taking out the current #1 assassin (the japanese dude) who is codenamed O. They go about trying to exploit each other, eventually turning into somewhat of allies, and then enemies again. The movie is filled with action and an interesting plotline that seems to run and stumble a few times if you catch my drift. Andy Lau gives a good performance as usual, although for my taste, he overacts a tad. The girls are attractive, but play minor roles in the movie, which the guys roll off of. Oh ho ho ho.... j/k This is one of those movies that just didn't fit my taste really. I can tell that some people may like it, but for me it didn't really settle for me. For me... I'd rate this a 7 / 10, maybe b/c I was too tired to give it my full and impartial attention but it did have some good stuff. I would recommend this movie to anyone who's an Andy Lau fan or... yea, that's it. Not the best action movie. If you're looking for something to spend the rest of your summer time if you've got it, It's not a bad movie to check out. Just don't expect a classic. Now that's a log blog. Time to break out and get some Zzzz....
